There are so many stories Maria, its just too raw . I find it easier to ignore that you are gone.. I am so proud of how you dealt with this, sheer determination and humour oh and food and boy you consumed some. I think about you all the time but i'm blank.. I know your up there thinking did you not care and i think that myself .. But i know wholeheartedly that you are the bestest friend i could ever had the luck to meet.. You, Joe and caithlin are my family, you took so much care of me after I lost my parents... You made me strong.. I will try and do the same for Joe and caithlin.. You met my son but not really but i know that when he smiles at that blank space behind me its you and his grandma and grandpa.. God bless you all, have fun... Yours always Nina